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Sarah. I'd like to speak with you.
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lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Lucius.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
I could not help but notice that you were not at the villa when I returned this evening.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
I didn't know if you were going to be home and I didn't want to be there alone.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm home now.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ah.

Well. I could come back now, then.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
You could. Would you like me to open the portkey?
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
If it's what you want.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
Since it pleases you to be unpredictable, perhaps you should know that your brother told me that we would fight if I contacted you. You could prove him wrong.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
It doesn't please me to be unpredictable. I don't behave as I do out of a childish desire to be willful and contrary, and I can't believe you'd insinuate that.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
I see. Very well. We should get this over with, then. Shall we pick a particular contentious topic, or would you rather be extemporaneous?
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
I don't want to fight! Damn it, Lucius. I don't like being like this. I don't like always having to second guess every conversation we're in. We're supposed to love each other. We're supposed to care for each other, not hurt each other all the time.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Perhaps you have been second guessing me when there was nothing to find. Last night, for instance.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
Are you going to blame me for last night?
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
For the sake of argument, let's say that I am. I asked if you were feeling better, and shortly thereafter things went badly awry.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
Fine. It's all my fault. It's always my fault. I don't know how you can stand to be around such a loser like me.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
You're being desperately childish, Sarah.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
I don't care.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
Look, cara. I've no idea what you want. I've no idea why you aren't here instead of there. I've no idea why we're fighting, and it's giving me a headache.

I don't want to play these fucking games any more.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 10:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm not playing games. I just want us to be happy again. I just want us to be all right again. I don't know why we're not and I don't know how to fix it and I keep trying and it just doesn't work and I don't know why.

il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 10:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
We were enjoying one another last night. Before the misunderstanding.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 11:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
We were. It was fun.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 11:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Then let's concentrate on that, shall we? We haven't had enough of that just recently.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 11:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
You love me for more than just the sex, though, right? Tell me why you love me. Tell me?
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 11:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
Sarah, you know it isn't just the sex.

Amo la tua arguzia. Il tuo ardore.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 11:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
I know you do. I do. I just--

I look at myself in the mirror and I don't know myself. I'm supposed to be gaining weight but how can I when I can't keep anything down? Our baby is going to be pale and spindly because I can't eat.

And I'm always crying. I cry when Grandma scolds me for putting sugar in the tea. I cry when Mother talks about stars and trees. And I threw a vase at Fionn yesterday for congratulating me on not getting sick at breakfast.

I'm tired of myself. Why wouldn't you be tired of me?

I just want this all to be over.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 11:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
Beloved, grant me a favour. Let me decide when I am tired of you. Can you manage that? I shall promise you with all the sincerity I can muster that I will tell you, in the unlikely event that it happens. Before that time, you may comfortably assume that I am not tired of you, that my inquiries as to your health and pleasure are genuine, and that I most earnestly desire to continue in your company.

Is that clear?
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 11:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yes.

I love you.
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 11:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
Come home.
lovely_predator From: lovely_predator Date: October 16th, 2005 11:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yes. Right now. Open the Blake for me?
il_mago From: il_mago Date: October 16th, 2005 11:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
Done. See you in the parlour, my love.
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